I'm so awful at journal titles.

It's been just shy of a month since I abandoned ship on tumblr, but tonight I created a new account. I think the time away was good for me, and that I can probably manage my addiction better over the summer (hopefully), which I think was what was the problem in the first place. The website is a life eater.

That and there was just a lot of emotional drama I was dealing with re: myself.

Speaking of summer, as of Thursday next week I am officially released of my school obligations, having completed my involvement with the lit mag, written all my papers, and finished exams. I just did 4 full semesters back-to-back, which is 16 months if you're counting. I'm feeling pretty burnt out, and excited to spend my summer lazing about. Probably doing some writing.

I have a new historical fiction short story in mind that I want to take a decent amount of time researching/writing. I'm also planning to revise one of the stories I wrote once more (maybe twice) and then bite the bullet and submit it for publication. Submitting for publication is fucking terrifying, just FYI. But when I got my revision back from my professor, she commented that I should consider it. It needs some definite tightening up, but it could be a big step for me in one way or another.

In other writing news, I have dived back into fandom/fanfiction. I hastily wrote my Gundam Wing Fic Exchange story this weekend. Writing for an anonymous recipient is really bizarre. I hope whoever gets it likes it, at least. I also did a few comment prompts for Lost Girl, which is a fandom I am on the fence about writing for at the moment, and I have a few things in mind to write for Justified, which scares and excites me. I'm tired of jumping into fandoms that are old and abandoned, or small and inactive. I think the Supernatural fandom ruined me, because there was so much fic and art and meta being produced in that fandom that it's challenging and disheartening to go to other fandoms where that doesn't exist.

But alas.

Well, I'm hooked.

I breezed through season one in a couple of days and then I devoured almost ever Boyd/Raylan fic I could read on AO3 (BECAUSE APPARENTLY THAT IS THE ONLY PLACE IT EXISTS) and I'm feeling a little bereft.

This keeps happening to me. I find shows that I like and would like to read fanfiction for, and there is either NONE, or the fandom is old so there's nothing new, and there's never a lot of it, or the fandom isn't that active on any of the main places that I peruse (like here, livejournal, and AO3, and I refuse to touch FF.net because there is so much bad to wade through before you ever reach something remotely good).

And as much as I'd like to write something, I feel like I need to be better caught up on the story line, plus I have things on my plate that require attention for the end of the semester, plus another GW story I need to write in April.

I. Need. Fic.

Internet, provide me with Boyd Crowder and Raylan Givens doing dirty nasty things to each other and give it to me right the fuck now.

I never get anything done the mornings of the days I have class because no sooner do I sit down to read or work on something, my mom decides she needs to RIGHT THAT SECOND taken on some massive project that requires my assistance ever couple of minutes.

Granted, we did sort of a large scale clean this weekend and are getting rid of a metric fuckton of things we don't need/want/use anymore. It's just... man, it doesn't seem to matter what I'm doing ever; I always get interrupted.

I want to move out this summer, so, so, so badly, but it is contingent on my being able to get a job and also finding a place that will let me bring my cat. As much as I love my parents, I always appreciate them more when we aren't occupying the same living space.

Also, I'm twenty-five, now, and I think I could benefit from having a place of my own.

While I am fussing around on dreamwidth, what I should actually be working on is my revision piece for my creative writing class. The problem is, this piece is giving me just as much trouble as it did when I first wrote it.

The premise is that this girl, Sabine, who's 17, gets caught by her mother having an inappropriate relationship with another girl, and she gets sent to the French Colony in what eventually becomes Canada, during the late 1600s.

While working on this last week, I came to realize that the story needs to start in Canada, but there was a lot of back story I wanted to include. I mean, I'd written 4 pages, and Sabine hadn't even left France, so it was a problem (page length is 10-15 pages double spaced). I've come to a narrative structure that I like, but now it's getting the words on the page that's the issue.

I always find it especially difficult to write stories as assignments. There's too much pressure, and I'm notorious for leaving things until the last minute. I want this story to be better the second time around because it wasn't what I wanted the first time.

After I finish this and my final paper for the semester, I have a 1000 word Gundam Wing Fic Exchange story to write, which I've been thinking about pretty much since January, and I don't expect to have problems with (other than it will most assuredly be longer than 1000 words).

Procrastinate, procrastinate, procrastinate.